June 28 – Okay but not

Tim got home last night about 10:15 from his 2nd round of maintenance chemo. The week went well and he feels pretty good but has been more tired than usual today. While he is doing well, there has been quite a bit going on that brings reality into check.

This week, Cassie took a walk. It happened to be a walk alone, which she hadn’t really done since the night Tim called her (while on a walk alone) to say he was headed to the emergency room. Who would have thought that a simple walk would be so triggering.

This morning, during church we sang one of Tim’s favorite songs. It also happens to be a song that we sang with our kids during both of our worship times at the hospital. It hit different today and Tim got very choked up and had a hard time singing it.

While at the hospital this week, a patient on the oncology floor passed away and then today we heard about a dear friend that had also passed away. There are about a dozen people on our church’s prayer list with cancer.

These have all combined (along with a couple other things) to really bring home the fact that this is something we will live with for the rest of Tim’s life – however long that may be.

While he is doing well now, things could just as easily turn on a dime next week, or next month, next year, or even 20 years from now. We never know when we might leave this earth. We have taken to heart the fact that Tim might be healed on this side of earth but never truly healed until he leaves this earth.

His long term prognosis at this point in time, seems to be good regardless of whether transplant is needed or not. However, the realization that so many are battling cancer and other serious illnesses and not doing as well is very heartbreaking to us.

We thank you all so very much for your prayers for us. Your continued prayers are very much appreciated. In spite of this week’s reality checks, we do still have a sense of peace, regarding our situation, which can only come from our Heavenly Father.

We are praising the fact that our dear friend is, right now, completely healed from all that was wrong and is seeing her Savior face to face.